Wishing for something new

For the longest time. Actually, almost ever since I started writing somewhat seriously, I’ve been working on a story I call The Gardener. I never seem to be able to get away from it and every new story idea I have is in some way connected to The Gardener; be a chapter, scene or a side track telling the background of a character or situation. To be honest, after more then ten years since its first inception I am now beginning to get sick of it. Somehow I think this is partly the reason to why I am not writing that much any longer. The spark, enjoyment of writing, is sort of dead. Even so, The Gardener never let go of my mind. Always present.

There would be a great joy in writing something new, the one thing that is not part of The Gardener and once again feel motivated and inspired to keep producing carefully chosen words to form neat lines. I’m not sure what that story is even though I have plenty in store still not written. Those are not really new. I want something new new.

I have no real clue of where to start such journey or even if I am able as of now to start one. I do like the idea of “write what scares you” but that shit is scary…


Author: Alaska Frank

Who is Alaska Frank? Some would describe him as a strange fellow with really messed up ideas. Maybe that’s true as his scripts are pretty damn odd. And brutal. For me, Alaska Frank is my personal way to handle reality. He’s my alter ego I created long ago to match the way I feel. The name Alaska points to my cold heart and no feeling of regret or shame or any other feelings for that matter. Frank stands for my honesty to everyone in any given situation. Some might take this as something offensive and become mad or sad or both while others appreciate it. My alter ego Alaska Frank has grown over the years and has now, in recent times he has become a real person for me. Even if you can’t meet Alaska Frank in real person he exist within me and follows me everywhere and I can bring him out whenever I need him. This might sound odd, like I escape the reality, afraid to meet the harsh. This is not the case. Alaska Frank is me and has always been me. It’s just not until my later years I realized it. Call it an identity crisis. Or any other thing if you like. But the fact is – I am Alaska Frank. And will always be. And I identify myself with my own creation. The main occupation for Alaska is writing, mostly drama for the stage but at some occasions he also writes fiction novels and poetry. He is fond charmed by the things presented with an open mind, things created to think and philosophize about. A bit of odd dark humor thrown in to it does not hurt either. Alaska Frank is pretty open with his projects he’s working on and if you are interested you can read small and early synopsis-like presentations of a bunch of stories he has in the Upcoming project and Current Project-pages. Feel free to comment on everything you read on this blog, either it’s posts or pages. I will answer if there’s a question in hand. Something else you might want to know: Alaska Frank is from Sweden, hence his main language are not English. He writes in English for the simple reason to learn, so if you read any of the content on this blog feel free to comment on this matter.

2 thoughts on “Wishing for something new”

  1. Totally get you.
    What you talk of is why I think short stories are often the purest form of writing as we don’t spend months or years on them and they aren’t sprawling masses of words, characters etc.
    Down To Earth that I’m working on, was written a couple years back…just about finished a fourth edit. And I can’t stand it lol…well maybe not that strong a feeling but close.
    We get sick of rehashing the same story world, and familiarity can definitely kill the motivation. When we’ve spent so long on a story it’s almost as if it’s already been published if you get me…I’m pretty transient in my attention anyway.
    Lesson for the future for me anyway: finish a project ASAP. The longer it goes on the less appeal it holds.

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